'I fall to my knees...'

In Ephesians 3:14, Paul says, 'When I think of the wisdom and scope of God's plan, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father...'

I may be taking this a little out of context, but it best reflects what I want to say right now. I have some serious decisions coming up, and not only about whether to move back to Oregon or stay in New York, although that's one of them. There are only a few times in our lives when we get to (or have to) make decisions that will have lasting impact; decisions that will affect career, relationships, family. Over the last couple weeks, I've been pondering a lot of these decisions. I told my uncle's friend, George, the other day, 'I can't imagine living to be 70. I'm only 22, and I'm already having a hard time figuring out my life! I can't imagine another 60 years of making these decisions.'

As I spend time trying to understand what God is telling me to do and what I feel best about doing, I take comfort in remembering everything that has already happened in my life, all the blessings and opportunities I've had:

I have amazing friends and family, across the entire country
I've been able to travel from coast-to-coast more times than some people even travel outside their home state!
I've been a part of amazing church bodies
I've attended a life-changing school of ministry, which led to the opportunity to work in ministry full-time, being a part of changing peoples' lives
I've lived in Oregon and New York (and a few places in between)
I've worked at Britt and seen and met more award-winning artists than I can count anymore
I've been on several powerful missions trips, including one to Israel (that was too dang short!)
And this is all just off the top of my head; if I took the time to think of every person and relationship and opportunity I've been blessed with, 'I suppose that if all the other things Jesus did were written down, the whole world could not contain the books.'

I don't want this to read as a list of 'why my life is better than yours,' or all the things that make me so cool. What I'm trying to say is that, even though I am genuinely nervous about what this next part of my life is going to contain, I can remember what God has done for me, and trust that he'll see me through this, as well. Shoot, I'd even go so far as to say that maybe I'll have a fulfilling and successful life when all is said and done.